Joshua 19 : 35

Joshua 19 : 35
"And the fenced cities are Ziddim, Zer, and Hammath, Rakkath, and Chinnereth,"

What are my fenced cities? I live my life and ask God to help me but do I have cities that are fenced off with a “no God allowed” sign on them? What does this mean to me?
I know God loves me and wants the best for me and I know that to have the best for me I have to let God have complete control of my cities. I want to let him in and to tear down the fences but I don’t seem to know how. It is like they are there and I can’t see them but for a glance now and again until I find myself inside one of them.
My mind wanders like a child lost in the woods looking for a place to play andf the next thing I know I am thinking on something I read or watched in the past that I thought I had forgotten, and it is never a good thing. I have let so much garbage into my mind over the years that has accumulated in these fenced cities that I need to clean out. What did the isaralites do when they came to a fenced city? Did they ignore it and say it is to strong for us or decide it is not a problem because it is fenced off? NO. They conquered it.
They went to war and destroyed it.
This is what I need to do. But how?
I have tried to win this battle in the past and have made strides in that direction but I still find myself in the fenced cities. Even at times that make no sense. I found myself in a nasty city in the middle of praise and worship – a thought about one thing let to another subject and to another and all of a sudden I was in the fenced city and struggled to get out. I can’t seem to just run out of the city once I get there – I have to fight to get past the fence. The inhabitants invite me in and even actively seek to drag me into the city but put up a fight when I try to leave.
I recognize that it is a trap of the enemy and that it is a result of choices I made in the past but I need to find cleansing from these cities. This would make a great book if only I had the answers to some (any) of the questions that I could say worked for me.
I know all the trite answers, read the bible more – pray more – think on the scriptures more – listen to Christian music more – ask God for deliverance - . . . .
I have done all of these and have made pretty good strides toward staying out of the cities but I still find myself there now and again. As soon as I recognize where I am I fight to leave and get back where I belong but I am distressed to have found myself there again. The simplest things draw me into the cities. The sight of the name of a website – a passing pretty lady – a flash of anger – a completely unrelated thought – it just seems so random.
I want to be free from these cities – I don’t want to just not visit them I want them destroyed. As God told the Israelites to do – every inhabitant and animal and thing in the cities need to be destroyed and the city raised.
But how?
I have asked God for wisdom and to do it Himself but so far I still find the cities there. God give me the wisdom to raise these cities – to break down their fences and to finally and forever conquer them. I am a child of God and I need to live my life free from the old cities.